Dearies.. it's a new year AGAIN!!
Went to 1Utama last night to get stuffs and dinner and came across many many kitties..^^
Took some pictures and sharing it with you girls.
May the new year bring lots of wealth, health and happiness to all of you
~G9H10 - MoMoChin
for a moment yesterday i felt reality is sinking in, as we were discussing about what's gonna happen after marriage...i've been pre-occupied with the wedding, that the 'full stop' seems to have just stopped there...haha..i'm such a torty...the thought of not coming back home for dinner on a daily basis...the thought of not seeing my parents everyday after work, but only few times in a week...'oh no....' 'how leh...' 'well, like that lor..' 'what to do...' 'you'll get used to it...' 'everyone will too get used to it...'
to be continued...lai2
Have some randoms thoughts to share here..
why random?
hmm....was browsing several sites/blogs...hence the randomness of my mind..
am having some mixed feelings...cant determine what it is really..the feeling of knowing someone you are close to, yet not knowing..so close yet so far?? what other discoveries about that person that has not been made?? or it's just a different way of expression oneself which I aint familiar with?? tak tahu...
2nd thought...how would this blog turn out to be 10 years down the road?? would the topics be revolving around our kids, family life and in-laws by then?!? haaa, more important question, is this blog still sustainable then ?!? tak tahu...its mixed feelings in me again to revist the blog's older posts and recall the moments then...
life is full of uncertainties indeed...but at least there's one Thing in this world that is certain..and the thought of having Him in me comforted me...
something joyous to share...this uncle earns a meagre living of 300+ a month on odd jobs and spent 100 on cigarettes alone! He was recruited into quit smoking clinic and today he came back for his first visit to share that he stopped smoking de! I promised him today to get him a piggy bank, so that he could see how much he'd saved by the end of the quit smoking course :) was really delighted to see his smiling and joyful face today :) pray he'd be free from this 'smoking bondage' soon...
*lai2*
initially, didn't thought of telling anyone abt this incident........now, hv another opinion. wld like u guys to know so that u r aware n won't act recklessly like me. looking back on it, i realised that i was v lucky.....prob my guardian angel was ard that day n saved me.
last sun, i woke up early, ard 8am (which was a vvv rare occurance for me, considering that i'm a night person) n i cldn't go back to sleep. msged lai2 n ss.....considering among all of us, they were the 1s most likely to wake up early but tat day, i think i even beat them to it. seeing no response fr them, i decided to take a walk ard the neighbourhood.
when i say take a walk, i didn't mean "literally walk"....usually, what i do is drive ard in the car. similar to what i do last time in glasgow; walk ard in the middle of the night to clear my mind. here, in kl, i don't hv that privilege seeing as it's so hot n humid.
however, on this day, i was forced to literally walk while thinking things through as my car was blocked by my mom's car. without notifying any1, i jt walked ard the neighbourhood, with hopes of sorting out my troubled mind.
there was this rd which was quite lonely.....but it's really shady n not so warm.....not even sure y i sudd became aware there was some1 watching me. prob my guardian angel "at work".
noticed fr the corner of my eye - a van with a few plp inside following behind me. {well, here's the part where every1 will start cursing me for being so stupid n reckless.....}
{to my defence, it was always v safe ard my area....plus there were supp 2 b guards patrolling the area}
back to the story......i started walking faster n at a pt, i started jogging...all the while hoping that i wld meet up with some of the early jogging birds......no luck there. when i started speeding up, the van also accelerated, which really spooked me up.
luckily, to my far right, i noticed a hse whose gates was opened outside.....ran inside n started banging on the front door. an elderly couple opened up n was quite surprised to see me, i wld sayoutside, the van stopped jt outside the gate but when the front door opened, it sped away.......it definitely gave me a v bad fright.
told the elderly couple what happened n they let me wait inside with them till their son came back n send me home. didn't tell my family this as u cld imagine what kind of response i wld hv gotten fr them. plus my mom wld totally freak out.
yes, it's all with due cause but i still prefer not to get drilled abt being so "stupid".
went back there yst afternoon.....not by foot this time. drove along the same stretch of rd......n it dawned on me if those plp in the van really had BAD intentions towards me, i might not be ard any longer. prob still ard, but at WHAT cost n in WHAT condition???
that's when i realised i hvn't told my family n u guys how much i love u all........might not hv even shown thru my actions as we don't get to see each other daily now. if i were gone, that wld hv been my BIGGEST regret of all. that's when i broke down in the car n cried for a full hr there.
this will forever be etched into my mind for all times........nvr procrastinate to tell those ard u how much u care n love them. not everything has 2 b said through words but at least, show them thru ur actions. i will try to do this for everyday of my life.....i wldn't know when i won't be ard to do this n i dun wanna leave this world full of regrets.
Was blog hopping a while ago and stumbled on to this particular posting by 'Thiansu Beh'. It was titled "Life Would Go On".
What was written in it really inspired and lifted my mood.. Thought of sharing it with everyone following this blog and hope that it will brighten your day as much as it has brighten mine.
This is the zest of what was written...
Life is never easy, but it is never too hard as well.
You can be complaining about what you have, what you are doing now or even having problems with the people around you.. and feeling really upset and unhappy.
Try changing the way we think.
If we can change the way we think, if we can see things from another perspective, if we can try to think positively in many of the our thoughts, if not all, we can be more grateful with what we have now.
When you change your thoughts, your perception changes.
When your perception changes, your attitude changes too.
With your attitude changed, your behaviour changes as well.
Thus altering your habits and eventually your personality.
Hence,
never look down or underestimate every little changes you have made, for them the beautiful complex things are determined.
Never underestimate the changes of one person, for them the attitude of larger community is determined.
There is a saying, "When you change the way you see things, the thing that you see changes."
G9H10 - MoMo*Chin
p/s : credits to Thiansu Beh for such an inspirational post!!
Wah I've last written since March ! and I like this new look of our blog ! Talking about new look, remember the 'New Look' chain in the UK we used to frequent? Reminds me of the shirt I bought from the outlet and its time for me to sort out my wardrobe. Its time for me to sort out many other things too.
Today is a historical day, to me at least! Its been 2 years. I didnt quite know how these 2 years had passed. When I come to full realisation recently, I felt like my eyes have been un-blindfolded. I couldnt 'see' clearly except at the beginning, and now the end of this milestone of my life. Cant wait to move on to another one indeed ;)
I began to recall lately on how I was waiting anxiously for the news of Masters placement, whether its part time or full time. I wanted to do full time because I know I'm one who cant really multi task and afraid I cant cope. The Lord has His own timing and way of doing things. I didnt know until the week classes were already started. He didnt give me much time and space to decline this part time offer. Full time quotas had been filled then. I still wasnt convinced and wanted to switch to full time. Esp when there was a lady who dropped out and I could actually fill her place. But the lecturer didnt allow me too! I was so sad. Towards the end of the week, I was driving home and the Lord spoke - its His plan for me to take this way. Regardless of what I think my weaknesses and challenges are, He will see me through. I said ok Lord, since You said that, I've got no choice but to depend on You. It was His grace, mercy, wisdom and strength which sustained me throughout these 2 years :)
What is it to my gain through this narrow gate He took or rather 'forced' me through ;) ? The Masters degree is the least of all. I treasure the discipline, preseverance & faithfulness He'd taught me. Never say never, never say impossible. All things are possible with Him. I'm also grateful for the liberation & wellness He has granted to my soul from my past hurts during this period. No words could express fully. Above all, loving the Lord. Though I'm challenged, could I still say the same when I face trying times? When I have been stricken bare, nothing left for me?!? I dunno but I pray I'd still do.
And then, as I was driving today (yea driving time is a good time for me to just keep silent and listen to Him ;)), I said Lord I know myself, what I am really, what I have and what I deserve. Your mercy upon my life is too great for me. I dont know exactly what I could offer back to You, but I just avail myself.
This verse aptly described these 2 years, His grace is sufficient for me, for His power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me - 2 Corinthians 9.
I'm really excited being 'freed' ! hehe, almost felt like being released from jail ! It was such a simple luxury to just lie on the couch and talk on the phone today. Without having my work at the back of my mind. I still have many more things on hand to catch up, but I'd rather do a million more things than to do thesis. I cant say I hated thesis when I was in the midst of it, but I can now! hahaa...!! I said to a friend, I'd rather give birth than to do thesis ever again! can you imagine how intoxicated I was with it ?!? Nevertheless, I dont resent. I give thanks and am glad its over! Mission accomplised! :)
ok time for bed..sorry for a long, boring entry...trying to make up for the past months. and I just wanna testify His goodness :) with love, lai2
Dear Girls...
This is the new outlook n image of our BLOG!!
What do you girls think? Nice? Or u guys prefer the older one??
BBBB is coming back soon.. time flies as it's been last 4 months since we saw her?
Just a lil' note to gather feedback for the new outlook!
G9H10 - MoMo*Chin
p/s : anyone who has digital pics of BBBB & Sushi plz send to me yah.. so far only Lai2 has sent to me... hope to recieve some really nice ones soon!!
Think of putting up some jokes here to lighten up our days... most of them are not my jokes, and jokes are jokes la...nothing serious ok...
Hope more will contribute some jokes here la..
My Times UP?
A 54 year old woman had a heart attack and was taken to
the hospital. While on the operating table she had a near death experience.
Seeing God she asked 'Is my time up?'
God said, 'No, you have another 43 years, 2 months and
8 days to live.'
Upon recovery, the woman decided to stay in the hospital and
have a face-lift, liposuction, breast implants and a tummy tuck.
She even had someone come in and change her hair color and brighten her teeth!
Since she had so much more time to live, she figured she might as well make the most of it.
After her last operation, she was released from the hospital.
While crossing the street on her way home, she was killed by an ambulance.
Arriving in front of God, she demanded, 'I thought you
said I had another 43 years? Why didn't you pull me from
out of the path of the ambulance?'
(You'll love this)
- God replied: 'I didn't recognize you.'
sushi
Was on the way to Immigration Dept Subang on Tuesday to make my passport when I saw this sign at the back of the lorry in front of our car
"QUALITY CHANGES THE WORLD"
I really like this phrase. It makes me think of what we can do to improve ourselves, our life, the service that we render to our customers. At times, when I am so caught up with paperwork, the stress of work, the boredom at home, it affects the quality of service that I give to my customers, or the attention that I give to people around me. In the process, I might have hurt people's feelings, unintentionally. Hence, a big big SORRY from me, if you have been the receiving end of my "unquality" attitude, I will learn to change and be a more quality person!!
Thinking of changing our baby's (blog) image... What do u guys think?
Been surfing the net for the past few days to choose the right one.. to fit everyone's style.
Up till now.. hm... none what so ever caught my eye.
Probably i'll continue surfing around... i'm sure the right one will come along...
Oh... beside informing you guys that there will be a new outlook for our blog, just wanted to share something with all of you.
If you guys love handmade cards and are too lazy to do it..
I have the best solution for you .... teng teng teng...
I have a friend who does beautiful, custom made cards and they are not expensive at all...
Will post some pics in this post... if u are interested... you can contact her.. beautiful cards!!!
Heard this story recently from a fren's fren..let's call him A for simplicity. One night A was driving home in his WAJA after happy hours. He had alot of drinks so when he was stopped at a roadblock, he began to panic. He was thinking to himself, " Sei lo..sure kena this time"
The policeman on duty asked A, " U ada minum tak?
A answered, "takda takda" shaking his head, even though he was v drunk at that time.
However, before A is done with the breath analyser test and before the policeman can take down his details, there was an accident just behind them. The policeman was distracted by the commotion behind them and hence tell A, " ok laa, u boleh balik sekarang"
Happily, A went home to sleep.
The next morning, someone knocked on the door loudly. It's the policeman again.
Policeman asked fiercely: "Eh, u ada minum banyak ke semalam? "
Again, A denied and answered, "takda takda" shaking his head.
Policeman now super unhappy and asked A loudly, "
Kalau u takda minum, KENAPA BAWAK SAYA PUNYA KERETA BALIK RUMAH KAMU??
(A drove the police car-also a Waja back home, with d policeman's belongings inside,shotgun included!!)
Since no one is writing, I contribute something on behalf of fussyleong lah..this one comes from her customer this morning..
A Bangla customer came in this morning, malu-malu and showed her the "prescription" from his home country..On the piece of paper, it's written, " Fucking Time Extension Tablet".. Now I wonder, how many of us can keep a straight face after reading such a straight-to-point prescription... if only all prescriptions are so straight forward from now on!!
sushi
Started my mini stocktake this week and already found few items, milk powder tins included MISSING !! #$%^@!~!@##~@#? really really kek sim...
So, we did this in the shop and stick it in "hotspot" areas..
Something has been part of my heart, part of my life, I didnt share with many. And I guess it's time for me to let go of it:)
I was at a very low pit last Friday. One of the few times my tears flowed almost unceasingly and uncontrollably. Prior to that, I was not doing well already and I just refused help. I refused to go to the Word. I refused to pray. I refused to seek help. I refused to be comforted and strengthened. I just wanted to dwell in the situation. Just didnt want to be picked up again. Hated and condemned myself. Cant seem to find my self worth, worth being in this world, lest having to add any value to it. 'No wonder ppl'd commit suicide', I thought to myself. Cos it just seemed the easiest way out to end one's misery. Wished God would just take me away and vanish me from the earth. This would be a cycle occuring quite consistently every 1-2 months, sometimes shorter, sometimes longer period. Haha I could actually blame the 'aunty' who visits me monthly.
At noon, I was contemplating whether to go to CF. I went at last and while walking, 3 words rang in my ears, 'I need prayer'. And I met the right persons there who offered their listening ears, tissue papers ;) and prayers. A Psy opinion was given and I was diagnosed as LLPPD - pre-menses emotional distress. If not careful, the distressing and depressing period can become chronic ie becoming depressed continuously. It's multifactorial - hormonal changes, current stress level, personality and childhood upbringing.
I was alone in the office after work and continued crying. Then, something led me to reaching the bible. Finally a time of rejoicing and liberation took place. That it dawns on me on what true righteousness is. Lord did not ask of me where I came from, what I could do, what I know, what I am capable of and what I have achieved. It is not how much compassion I show. How much I could serve. How clever I am. How efficient I am. How useful I am. But He asks of my trust in Him. ‘Abraham believed God and it was credited to him as righteousness - Romans 4:3’. He asks of my faith in Him. Which I wavered. Which I doubted. Which I refused to believe. How much fear I have in myself? How inconfident I am in myself? How low I was in the pit? Lord says, 'Will you not trust me for once? Will you not let go of your hands from the railing and let me carry you? To bring you greater places? Will you not trust me? Who I am in your life if the trust is so shallow. As good as nothing. No need at all'. What is the greatness of God if all have been done.
He picked me up once again. Thank you Lord. I could see the light again. He said ‘Be strong and do the work. Do not be afraid or discouraged for the Lord is with you. He will not fail you or forsake you until all the work for the service of the Lord's temple is finished - 1 Chronicles 28'. He chose the young and inexperienced Soloman to build his house. And many others who are handicapped. Yet he said it is not my works He asks of. But faith, as precious as a refined jewel, more precious than gold. Nothing should separate me from the love of God. The gap should become smaller between God and I. So much so that it becomes easier to trust Him. To just come to Him. To plainly trust. Lord would you help me to overcome this...:)
It's still an ongoing battle to fight the evil one. But knowing the victory has already given to those who believe in Him on the cross, peace that surpasses all understanding reigns in my heart..to Him be all glory unto:)
-lai2-
i've been on leave for a week and i believe that most of u all think that it's more than enough. u know what?? i still got lots of stuffs to do... i have no time to breath..haha..
it's really hectic..
the above paragraph is written by me the day before my wedding...
i was throwing tantrum at my family members b4 the wedding and during the day. it's because no one is able to help me...instead, i need to take care of them, need to arrange transports and accomodations for the relatives..i need to arrange make-up artists for my family and my in-laws..too much..
my dad called me on thursday nite and i was shouted at him coz i couldn't hear him thru my hp. immediately, he asked my sis to go to pavillion to buy me a new Hp.. when he past me the hp at nite after i reach home, i was so touch and i cried..i regretted for being so rude.
during my wedding day, everything was going on smoothly..there were lots of hiccups but i wasn't particular.. i really enjoy the day.. it's the day given by GOD.. and i truly appreciate it. . i am so glad to see my parents and parents-in-laws happily walking around, talking to the relatives and their close friends...
now i am happily staying in kota kemuning with kong wah. i am reading the book given by yinkey and am sincerely praying for kw. i pray that he will take the initiative to care about his health, to change his diet.. i want to spend many many anniversaries with him..=)
Beautychock*
I guess it is time for me to have some input here. So i thought of writing loneliness vs hecticness.
I have been away from home for many years. This is already the sixth consecutive years. I have always been thinking, how much have I missed out throughout all these years? I couldn't stay by my parents side to spend more time with them; to be a good and responsible daughter and to at least do the minimal. At times when I think of my grandma who is now at her old age I couldn't stop my heart aches and my tears flowing.
The situation is a lot better now as my dad has started talking to him and my mum no longer shed tears while having family dinner. The worst seemed to be in history. I am grateful for this.
Because of logistic's issue I couldn't attend sushi and beautychock's weddings. And obviously I have missed out a lot on other things. This part of my heart always feels very lonely. I couldn't find any friends who would understand and support me as you would. Something is lacking. It obviously doesn't help when he has to travel so much. Almost during every overseas conversation I have asked him similar questions over and over again to reinstate my presence. I would throw tantrums if he didn't call me back when he said he would. I couldn't sleep all night and kept waking up every hour to check on my phone to see if there is any message or missed calls. I would become so upset and it was never easy. There was no one to talk to and to keep me accompanied. There was no way to express the emotion. At times i feel like i have chronic mild depression.
It is ironic as I am living in London, one of the busiest city in the world. There are so much to do! Sightseeing, museums and gallery, shopping, musical and theatres etc. But it was no point to do things alone. I think i am already doing a great job by dining in the restaurants all by myself and then catching some movies alone. Not too many people could envisage such situation. It wasn't for a short time. It is almost 3 years now, and it is still on-going. In the morning i urge myself to walk a little quicker so that i could reach office a little earlier. During work i told myself to run up and down a bit faster so that i could finish my work earlier. I even had to chew faster during lunch so that I could go back to work asap. It is busy and pre-occupied on the outside but empty inside me.
I am coping, I will keep trying and I will.
Baba*beibei
i must say kong wah did a good role in photo shootings. he enjoyed every moment deeply and we really have fun through out the sessions.. it's tiring yet amazing..
this is the reason why the photo turns out nicely...
above all, i must thank GOD for placing kong wah into my life, arranging everything for me. through out the wedding preparations, sometimes i just forget to seek for HIS wisdom, but when i turn around i know HE is there for me...
just like lailai says, whenever i feel HIS presence, i am feeling back home again...
beautychock*
i haven't been writing for quite sometimes. usually it's due to my mood. if i am not in a good condition, my mood is not good...i won't choose to write.. bcoz i don't like to share my sadness with too many ppl...i am quite shy...haha
i was sad for the past few days bcoz i think i am putting on weight back...so i need to control my diet tightly now... i got less than a month to go...
too many things to be done and really little time for kw and i to communicate.. disagreements occurred and settled..
finally we have decided where to go for our honeymoon.
All this while we are thinking to UK bcoz he likes cold places and we wish to feel our memory back there when we were in UK.. we didn't decide it bcoz of the finances, our budgets are tight. By luck and by chance, (it's not convenient to share here...but some of u: momo and babei should have knew about it), i got some extra money and MAS has the airfare's reduction recently. after calculating our finances, we realise that we can make it finally...yeah...=)
we will go there in april for 2 weeks and the itenary is not planned yet... goon, here we come..=)
i have got my wedding pics.. i think we look really nice...haha..can't wait to share with everyone..
thank you so much for arranging the hen's night. i love u gals...
beautychock*
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