a good wake up call

initially, didn't thought of telling anyone abt this incident........now, hv another opinion. wld like u guys to know so that u r aware n won't act recklessly like me. looking back on it, i realised that i was v lucky.....prob my guardian angel was ard that day n saved me.

last sun, i woke up early, ard 8am (which was a vvv rare occurance for me, considering that i'm a night person) n i cldn't go back to sleep. msged lai2 n ss.....considering among all of us, they were the 1s most likely to wake up early but tat day, i think i even beat them to it. seeing no response fr them, i decided to take a walk ard the neighbourhood.

when i say take a walk, i didn't mean "literally walk"....usually, what i do is drive ard in the car. similar to what i do last time in glasgow; walk ard in the middle of the night to clear my mind. here, in kl, i don't hv that privilege seeing as it's so hot n humid.

however, on this day, i was forced to literally walk while thinking things through as my car was blocked by my mom's car. without notifying any1, i jt walked ard the neighbourhood, with hopes of sorting out my troubled mind.

there was this rd which was quite lonely.....but it's really shady n not so warm.....not even sure y i sudd became aware there was some1 watching me. prob my guardian angel "at work".

noticed fr the corner of my eye - a van with a few plp inside following behind me. {well, here's the part where every1 will start cursing me for being so stupid n reckless.....}

{to my defence, it was always v safe ard my area....plus there were supp 2 b guards patrolling the area}

back to the story......i started walking faster n at a pt, i started jogging...all the while hoping that i wld meet up with some of the early jogging birds......no luck there. when i started speeding up, the van also accelerated, which really spooked me up.

luckily, to my far right, i noticed a hse whose gates was opened outside.....ran inside n started banging on the front door. an elderly couple opened up n was quite surprised to see me, i wld sayoutside, the van stopped jt outside the gate but when the front door opened, it sped away.......it definitely gave me a v bad fright.

told the elderly couple what happened n they let me wait inside with them till their son came back n send me home. didn't tell my family this as u cld imagine what kind of response i wld hv gotten fr them. plus my mom wld totally freak out.

yes, it's all with due cause but i still prefer not to get drilled abt being so "stupid".

went back there yst afternoon.....not by foot this time. drove along the same stretch of rd......n it dawned on me if those plp in the van really had BAD intentions towards me, i might not be ard any longer. prob still ard, but at WHAT cost n in WHAT condition???

that's when i realised i hvn't told my family n u guys how much i love u all........might not hv even shown thru my actions as we don't get to see each other daily now. if i were gone, that wld hv been my BIGGEST regret of all. that's when i broke down in the car n cried for a full hr there.

this will forever be etched into my mind for all times........nvr procrastinate to tell those ard u how much u care n love them. not everything has 2 b said through words but at least, show them thru ur actions. i will try to do this for everyday of my life.....i wldn't know when i won't be ard to do this n i dun wanna leave this world full of regrets.

Inspiring Thoughts

Was blog hopping a while ago and stumbled on to this particular posting by 'Thiansu Beh'. It was titled "Life Would Go On".


What was written in it really inspired and lifted my mood.. Thought of sharing it with everyone following this blog and hope that it will brighten your day as much as it has brighten mine.


This is the zest of what was written...


Life is never easy, but it is never too hard as well.


You can be complaining about what you have, what you are doing now or even having problems with the people around you.. and feeling really upset and unhappy.


Try changing the way we think.


If we can change the way we think, if we can see things from another perspective, if we can try to think positively in many of the our thoughts, if not all, we can be more grateful with what we have now.


When you change your thoughts, your perception changes.

When your perception changes, your attitude changes too.

With your attitude changed, your behaviour changes as well.

Thus altering your habits and eventually your personality.


Hence,

never look down or underestimate every little changes you have made, for them the beautiful complex things are determined.

Never underestimate the changes of one person, for them the attitude of larger community is determined.

There is a saying, "When you change the way you see things, the thing that you see changes."

G9H10 - MoMo*Chin

p/s : credits to Thiansu Beh for such an inspirational post!!

I am free !~!

Wah I've last written since March ! and I like this new look of our blog ! Talking about new look, remember the 'New Look' chain in the UK we used to frequent? Reminds me of the shirt I bought from the outlet and its time for me to sort out my wardrobe. Its time for me to sort out many other things too.

Today is a historical day, to me at least! Its been 2 years. I didnt quite know how these 2 years had passed. When I come to full realisation recently, I felt like my eyes have been un-blindfolded. I couldnt 'see' clearly except at the beginning, and now the end of this milestone of my life. Cant wait to move on to another one indeed ;)

I began to recall lately on how I was waiting anxiously for the news of Masters placement, whether its part time or full time. I wanted to do full time because I know I'm one who cant really multi task and afraid I cant cope. The Lord has His own timing and way of doing things. I didnt know until the week classes were already started. He didnt give me much time and space to decline this part time offer. Full time quotas had been filled then. I still wasnt convinced and wanted to switch to full time. Esp when there was a lady who dropped out and I could actually fill her place. But the lecturer didnt allow me too! I was so sad. Towards the end of the week, I was driving home and the Lord spoke - its His plan for me to take this way. Regardless of what I think my weaknesses and challenges are, He will see me through. I said ok Lord, since You said that, I've got no choice but to depend on You. It was His grace, mercy, wisdom and strength which sustained me throughout these 2 years :)

What is it to my gain through this narrow gate He took or rather 'forced' me through ;) ? The Masters degree is the least of all. I treasure the discipline, preseverance & faithfulness He'd taught me. Never say never, never say impossible. All things are possible with Him. I'm also grateful for the liberation & wellness He has granted to my soul from my past hurts during this period. No words could express fully. Above all, loving the Lord. Though I'm challenged, could I still say the same when I face trying times? When I have been stricken bare, nothing left for me?!? I dunno but I pray I'd still do.

And then, as I was driving today (yea driving time is a good time for me to just keep silent and listen to Him ;)), I said Lord I know myself, what I am really, what I have and what I deserve. Your mercy upon my life is too great for me. I dont know exactly what I could offer back to You, but I just avail myself.

This verse aptly described these 2 years, His grace is sufficient for me, for His power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me - 2 Corinthians 9.

I'm really excited being 'freed' ! hehe, almost felt like being released from jail ! It was such a simple luxury to just lie on the couch and talk on the phone today. Without having my work at the back of my mind. I still have many more things on hand to catch up, but I'd rather do a million more things than to do thesis. I cant say I hated thesis when I was in the midst of it, but I can now! hahaa...!! I said to a friend, I'd rather give birth than to do thesis ever again! can you imagine how intoxicated I was with it ?!? Nevertheless, I dont resent. I give thanks and am glad its over! Mission accomplised! :)

ok time for bed..sorry for a long, boring entry...trying to make up for the past months. and I just wanna testify His goodness :) with love, lai2

New Outlook

Dear Girls...

This is the new outlook n image of our BLOG!!

What do you girls think? Nice? Or u guys prefer the older one??

BBBB is coming back soon.. time flies as it's been last 4 months since we saw her?

Just a lil' note to gather feedback for the new outlook!

G9H10 - MoMo*Chin

p/s : anyone who has digital pics of BBBB & Sushi plz send to me yah.. so far only Lai2 has sent to me... hope to recieve some really nice ones soon!!